So, here it is, my final ‘in a nutshell’ post for 2020. I’ve seen a lot of people echo the sentiment of how pleased they are to see the back of 2020, and whilst I do agree with that statement, I must admit I don’t feel as though 2021 is quite the fresh start that we had all hoped for. If the pandemic was behind us by this point then perhaps yes it would be worthy of more celebration, but for me not a lot (if anything) has changed just yet. I’m hopeful for a better year than last year, and as such I am (and have been) wishing a Happy New Year to all, I just wish it could have started a little more positively than it did.
Enough about this year though, keep reading to find out about how the final month of last year was for me…
On the whole December was a dry month here so we got out and about for fresh air a lot. I love being outdoors, and going for a walk is my favourite way to spend the morning. We adopted the same routine that we had during the initial lockdown back in March and we went just after breakfast, it seems to be the best time of day for us all to get the most out of it. December was also the month that I took my daughter to feed the ducks for the first time. She’s been and seen them a few times before but this was the first time actually feeding them. She absolutely loved it and wasn’t afraid at all, not even when a couple of swans greedily approached us.
I’m pleased to report that the Christmas tree survived. We managed to explain that it was to be looked at and not touched and the little one actually listened! We did make sure to only decorate where she couldn’t reach to reduce temptation but it still looked great overall. Putting the tree up definitely made me feel more festive throughout the month (which was much needed), so I’m glad we decided to go for it.
HIGH AND LOW
Lockdown restrictions saw the hotel that I work in forced to close again, so furlough beckoned. Usually the festive period is super busy so it was strange to not go to work at all, although it may have been stranger still to go in and it be quiet shift after quiet shift. I was grateful to not have to go to work over Christmas, but this ongoing furlough situation is taking its toll now. I’d much rather be working and it mean that normal life is resuming, and a full pay packet would also be nice!
It’ll come as no surprise I’m sure that my first, and main low for December is all about lockdown. Of course I understand it all, but I must admit it just felt downright cruel how the UK government approached everything. I really had my hopes up to be able to go and visit my family over the festive period, and it was promised, and then snatched away at the last moment. Whether it was right or wrong to do this is a conversation for another time, but needless to say I was gutted.
The little one had a horrific bout of teething this month, she was so miserable. It ended up affecting her appetite and her sleep pretty badly, and far more than it has before. We thought she might be having a sleep regression, but now we aren’t so sure because she was back to normal with sleeping after only a few bad nights. It also seems as though she might be a little afraid of the dark, so we picked up a nightlight for her just in case and this seems to have helped. I’m so glad that everything has settled down again because it’s so horrible to see her upset.
My daughter finally said ‘mama’. I’ve been (not so patiently) waiting for her to say and understand that I am mama. She’s been saying all manner of variations of daddy and dada for months now, and I’ve been so jealous, so it really made my day when she finally came out with it. It wasn’t a one-off either luckily, she’s saying it all the time now which is just lovely to hear. She has also started saying book this month so I’m hoping that’s a sign that she is shaping up to be a future bookworm just like me!
I had planned on writing a separate post all about my festive period but with things not turning out how anybody would’ve liked I thought instead I would just tell you about it here. I haven’t put it into a high, low, or standout moment category because the whole thing was a little bittersweet and so I don’t really know where it belongs.
Overall I can’t fault the festive period too much because I did enjoy it, but it was certainly not what I had hoped or expected. In the UK we had thought we were going to be given a five day period in which restrictions would be lifted, meaning we could travel to see family and friends etc. This ended up being changed quite last minute, and it sent all my plans up in the air. I had planned to see my family over two days from the five, and my partners family on another day from the five. With myself in South Wales and my family in Bristol when the final rules were announced it meant I couldn’t see them at all, which was such a shame. Had the announcement taken place earlier I could’ve sent presents directly, instead they are still sitting upstairs waiting to be handed out well, who knows when! I know that moaning about presents seems might seem so fickle but I just enjoy handing out gifts, and for the kids especially it would’ve been nice for them to have something to open. I appreciate what is going on right now, and I know there is a lot to be grateful for, but there is no denying that the promise of something being snatched away is so upsetting.
We did manage to go and visit my partner’s family though, they live locally so it isn’t anywhere near as difficult, and it was a lovely day. Again though, it did seem a little bittersweet because it reminded me of what I wasn’t able to experience with my family. Otherwise we were just at our house. We made the best of things, I made cookies on Christmas Eve for Santa, we took some pictures of the little one in her Christmas outfits, and we watched festive films. It wasn’t a bad Christmas, far from it, it was just tainted a little. I’m sure so many people feel that way this year.
As for New Year’s Eve, well, I didn’t even make it to midnight! I fell asleep on the sofa by around 10.30. I’ve never been one to celebrate really, I tend to work because I do find it all to be somewhat of an anticlimax. This year though I really wasn’t bothered, even more so than usual. As I said at the beginning of this post, I think if the pandemic was closer to being behind us, or behind us completely then I would’ve really been up for a celebration, but with how things are at the moment there didn’t seem much point in getting too excited, so a quiet night at home suited me just fine.
Back to some more positive things now…
I’ve really been enjoying watching Modern Family on Netflix throughout the month, have you seen it? I have to say it is one of the funniest shows I’ve ever seen, but it’s also so heartwarming that I’ve found myself jumping from tearing up to laughing my head off multiple times per episode. If you haven’t seen it I recommend giving it a try.
December has brought a renewed passion for reading that I realise was lacking at certain points throughout the year. Perhaps I was just eager to cram as much in as I could before the end of the year, I don’t know, but I did find myself grabbing a book whenever I had a spare minute and I really hope that continues into the new year. My reading has been all for pleasure, and not felt at all like a chore and I love it when this is the case.
Finally, in case you missed any of my December posts:
How was your month? Any highs, lows, or standout moments that you would like to share?
Thanks for reading, I hope that you enjoyed!