I put the photo above on Instagram this morning, it’s one of the pathways inside The National Botanic Garden of Wales. It’s a nice picture, well, I think so anyway. It’s pretty and perhaps most people would look at it and say ‘ah that’s lovely’ and then not give it a second thought, and that’s fine, it’s normal. For me it means something more than that though and I wanted to share it with you, so that’s the inspiration for this post.
Ok, let me explain.
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I visited The National Botanic Garden of Wales with a friend of mine recently and we had a really lovely day exploring and catching up. But…you probably sensed a but was coming right?! When I took the picture that you see above I was staring at the pathway thinking to myself that if I had gone there as a child I would have loved to run down the path tracing the swirls. I then realised that my inner child was totally up for me embracing that option now. That’s when the struggle began. Adult me looked around, saw other members of the public nearby, and thought I can’t do that, it would be embarrassing. So, I didn’t. I let the boring adult side of me win. I took the photo, didn’t mention my thoughts to my friend (who I’m sure would have encouraged me to do it, and maybe would have joined in!) and I walked away. Yep, I took us on an alternative route altogether.
As silly as I felt at the time for even considering running down the swirly path I feel ten times more silly now because I should have just done it shouldn’t I. Who cares what anybody else thinks, we should just have fun and enjoy ourselves, it wouldn’t have harmed anyone. In fact, it would probably have given a few people a good laugh, and for those who would have tutted and shook their heads (of course there would have been one or two, there always is), well, those people would only have found something else to complain about so it is what it is.
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I’m putting a return trip on my to-do list, and I’m going to run down that path just because it would be fun, I might even skip if I’m feeling brave. Ok, maybe I wont go that far, but if I want to on the day then I will because there’s no harm in it and my inner child will love it!
In the meantime I’m going to use it as motivation to be a little less self-conscious, a little less bothered about what people think, and a little more brave. A work in progress for sure but it’s a start.
Do you worry about what others think? Does it stop you doing things that you want to do? When was the last time you let your inner child out? I would love to hear your thoughts!
Thanks for reading, I hope that you enjoyed!
Until the next time…Jess x